Unravelled..

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Finally, i am feeling at peace with myself. I found the answer/the truth that i was looking for all these months.

The months of ordeal, months of "what did i do?" "what did i possibly do?" has been answered. Not just answered; clarified beyond doubt. No. I dint hear any lame story from anyone. People can be a tad selfish, a little manipulative or tweak few things to suit them, you see. So, I just found out the truth myself. Period.

Truth has a power of healing everything. Truth is just magic - i must say. For everything is falling into place now. Ones i dint know, things which i was wondering, things which some people couldn’t tell me... everything..

I am happy i found the root cause. Forget about what followed. It doesn’t matter now. It was just an avalanche of reactions that followed the first word. Everything was selectively fed. Everything was triggered. Everything was conspired, executed and lo, there it was.

There is this concept in Neural Networks, where intelligence is fed into the neural brain. A training set is formed using selective inputs depending on the output desired from it. The neural brain learns through these training set. The more the training sets for a particular output, more accurate is the behaviour. But the brain crashes, when there is an input of unknown type when it is left to fend for itself. It’s plain confused as to what to do and what not. I just came to know how relevant artificial intelligence is in humans also.

I am happy i played it fair. You might not agree with me, but i know and God knows. I played it alone. Never mind, becoz i still played it fair. Unfortunate, that no-one did play any better.. But i wouldn't want to comment on that. Because its up to others. Whether they play by rules or frame their own rules. . On second thoughts, might be I didn’t play fair by others scale. Might be everyone was right. Might be everyone was wrong. Everyone has a point here. Circumstances would have had a bigger role to play. Anyways, what matters now is the feeling/ satisfaction i derive from the fact that i tried my level best for good. On the way i learnt that silence is not golden!! Speak right, speak appropriate. By right and appropriate i mean, things what others WANT to hear. Not what you want to tell!! Don’t be very honest. Straight trees are cut first. Remember?


Definitely i could have done few things better. I have done few wrong things at the wrong time. But i never thought it to be that catastrophic. As the saying goes even faint strokes can fell a huge oak tree, (when the winds are very strong i should add :))..

So here we are guys.. A new, happy, relieved and peaceful me learning few more lessons, becoming a little more wiser and eager for some more experiences!!

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